He took that sip…

I couldn’t believe my ears.  After all the progress he made…. reunited and got full custody of his 8 year old son, nice job and a nice place to live………..He took that sip of Alcohol.  All these thoughts rushed into my head, but the one that stuck out the most was, I wonder what drove him there.  What was it that made him go back into that darkness.  Let me feel it, experience it.. let me relate to it just for a moment.  I want to know what you feel right before you decide to take that drink.  What is that darkness like???  Why is it that all those positive things in his life couldn’t over power the Demon.  I pray for you today, for Strength, Will, and the Determination to move forward and start again.  I pray you dust yourself off and let yesterday be done, Today I can.

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Why was I chosen…

10387215_284457475068493_6855258254673819651_nSo, Every time I see this sentence somewhere, “Do you have a deep purpose that not a lot of people know about. You might not be sure yourself, but you just know you were meant for something bigger” I immediately feel like crying, sadness in my chest…….almost agonizing to my soul.  I’ve felt it for as long as I can remember……………. I AM HERE FOR A BIGGER PURPOSE, always feeling like something is right around the corner, just at the tip of my fingers but out of my reach.  For the life of me, can’t seem to figure out what can I do, or how can I help??  Well, it’s haunting me but I know the answer will come.  As soon as I let it go……. the answer will come.