Her last day on Earth

Dee hugged her girlfriend goodbye and watched her leave through the window…like she does every morning.  As she said “Goodbye” Dee held on a bit tighter this time.  Ohh, Patti said, where did that come from?  Dee replied “I just want you to know how much I love you and you mean the world to me”.  Awww… I know you do said Patti, I really do.  She walked off and into her car she went.  Dee stood by the window the whole time waiving as Patti made her way down the pavement.

She waited……. she waited for that one phone call, that one text…. that one person that would make her change her mind……..about leaving this Earth.  It didn’t happen and she was quite surprised how she pulled it off that no one knew.  No hints, no clues.. it was never spoken about.  Only inside her head constantly.  Well, that was it.  She didn’t need anyone to change her mind.  The Financial Burden would finally end.  Such a Peaceful thought.  She made up her mind.

Sadness she felt for the loved ones she left behind.  Just hearing them say, how could she do this, why didn’t she ask for help.  If they can hear me now, I’d say… I was tired of the struggle.  I got myself into this mess, I got myself out.  I love you all very much.  Life was not fun anymore.  Please accept my sincere words of: I didn’t want to hurt anyone.


He took that sip…

I couldn’t believe my ears.  After all the progress he made…. reunited and got full custody of his 8 year old son, nice job and a nice place to live………..He took that sip of Alcohol.  All these thoughts rushed into my head, but the one that stuck out the most was, I wonder what drove him there.  What was it that made him go back into that darkness.  Let me feel it, experience it.. let me relate to it just for a moment.  I want to know what you feel right before you decide to take that drink.  What is that darkness like???  Why is it that all those positive things in his life couldn’t over power the Demon.  I pray for you today, for Strength, Will, and the Determination to move forward and start again.  I pray you dust yourself off and let yesterday be done, Today I can.

……………So she ended her life………………

Sometimes we really don’t know when someone is hurting DEEP down inside. Some will cry out, some WILL NOT. They can walk around with a smile on their beautiful face and seem interested in life…………….When they are really NOT.  WE are planning activities and just things in our daily lives…….. when they’ve been planning TO END THEIRS!!! If you believe you can pick up someone’s spirit today, they go ahead and do it. Don’t be shy to give them a nice compliment or tell them a nice quality about WHO THEY ARE……….So they feel they have a place in this world. Times are tough, YES….. BUT when that someone loses HOPE, AND THE WILL TO LIVE, WHAT ELSE IS THERE???… Listen to what people say…..find out what’s going on in their life.  I truly believe there always has to be at least one clue.  That one thing that sparks your intuition.  I am becoming more and more aware of the words I speak to people.  More aware of how folks carry themselves around and what they say.  Well, today is also a reminder to myself, the words we speak to others can be LIFE CHANGING!!!! Be nice, you can change someone’s life TODAY……………………….


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He lost his life.. after battling cancer…. who knew?

Just when you think life is great, summer is here!! Laughing and splashing around in the cool water, while the sun beats down on your body. Planning trips and gathering with the people you love to be with. The ice cream truck passing by while the kids run after it screaming “Ice Creeeeam” Yes, summer is wonderful…..and then it hits you. Someone looses their life. It hits so hard that our brains cannot possibly comprehend such an event. Once again family and friends struck by an overwhelming tragedy..Their Son, Brother, Cousin, Nephew. But It brings the strongest sadness for me to say it was Her Finance!! Our lives change forever. I will be in silence for a while, while my best friend bonds together with her family who lost this young man. If I had to choose something in this world besides assisting others in their healing….. It would be for us to love and take care of each other. Let the small things pass. Really take the time to be with people, take care of them, get to know one another. We are surely not going to like everyone we meet. (It’s just not going to happen). But you know what, have some compassion. Maybe they are going through something you just can’t understand right now. Whether you know it or not, we’re all in this together. If we believe in that, there would be a big difference in the way we treat each other. Lets have patience and take a recon in what’s important in life. Make a conscious effort……I’ve started…. Who’s gonna follow? Man up, Woman up. Don’t worry, you won’t be weak if you give in to someone. Our egos are cruel and we learn it the hard way. But, I’m the first to admit it. Love and Prayers to the whole family. Love you guys more than you know.