I accepted this Mission…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME….. WELL, I was born into this World on this day, 1974!!  It’s been a heck of a ride so far!!  I want to take the time and let the world know how much GRATITUDE I have, and how THANKFUL I am for the MANY BLESSINGS!!  
A few days ago, I got a message.  This message has been trying to come through in other ways… but I understand more now.  I AM AWAKENING…I AM TRUTH..I AM BECOMING WHO I’M SUPPOSED TO BE.  It was a long detour with many heartaches… meeting troubled people and situations… BUT……. I am here to learn lessons… walk this EARTH and shed my LIGHT!!  Learn lessons, or I come back to this EARTH and replay these lessons again and again… until I learn them… This is a difficult dimension to live in.. and I choose very wisely what I partake in and what I give my energy to… It is very precious…. but from what I understand… I raised my hand when they said Planet Earth needs help… who will go and be brave… who can I all upon??  I raised my hand… and here I am.  I want to cry at the thought of me actually wanting to come here during very difficult times.  Then on the other hand, it is my personality… determined, willing and never gives up!!
I chose my friends, I chose my family… and most people I see everyday.  Some are in the “backdrop” and that’s where they’ll stay.  Some are very near and dear.. and in the forefront of my screenplay!!  “It’s a wonderful life” because it’s what I want… It’s what I am writing… with a few bumps here and there…. as nothing is written in stone!!
I will chose my DEATH!!  However I want to leave this EARTH… that’s how it will be.  When I am tired and want to go HOME!!  I will leave because that’s what I agreed on before I came here!!  I’ve now learned, when someone takes their life, they are tired and feel they have done their part on Earth… I will always have mixed feelings about Suicide and hurts my guts.. to my core.. but… they chose to go HOME!!
I am here on EARTH.. On a Mission… Very powerful and very healing!!  I can’t wait to see what’s next.. what messages my Angels will give me to lead me in this path!!

Diaries of an Awakening Soul..Part 1

UHHHHH……………AS THE DARK LAYERS SHED, IT’S AGONY IN THIS SHELL MOST DAYS………….SHE WEEPS ON THE INSIDE SO NO ONE HEARS HER…..SOMETIMES IT’S EASIER THAT WAY…………….SHE’S AFRAID THEY WON’T UNDERSTAND………….ALONE AGAIN………WILL THIS EVER END…………..SHE REASONS WITH HERSELF THAT IT’S THE RIGHT THING TO DO IN ORDER TO GROW……AT TIMES WANTING TO PRETEND SHE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT SHE KNOWS…………TRUTHS ARE BEING REVEALED…..REVEALING HER OWN DARKNESS AND SHADOWS TO LET SOME LIGHT IN……..NOW KNOWING SHE CAN NEVER TURN BACK…………SHE SITS WITH THIS………..ALONE AGAIN……………