I accepted this Mission…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME….. WELL, I was born into this World on this day, 1974!!  It’s been a heck of a ride so far!!  I want to take the time and let the world know how much GRATITUDE I have, and how THANKFUL I am for the MANY BLESSINGS!!  
A few days ago, I got a message.  This message has been trying to come through in other ways… but I understand more now.  I AM AWAKENING…I AM TRUTH..I AM BECOMING WHO I’M SUPPOSED TO BE.  It was a long detour with many heartaches… meeting troubled people and situations… BUT……. I am here to learn lessons… walk this EARTH and shed my LIGHT!!  Learn lessons, or I come back to this EARTH and replay these lessons again and again… until I learn them… This is a difficult dimension to live in.. and I choose very wisely what I partake in and what I give my energy to… It is very precious…. but from what I understand… I raised my hand when they said Planet Earth needs help… who will go and be brave… who can I all upon??  I raised my hand… and here I am.  I want to cry at the thought of me actually wanting to come here during very difficult times.  Then on the other hand, it is my personality… determined, willing and never gives up!!
I chose my friends, I chose my family… and most people I see everyday.  Some are in the “backdrop” and that’s where they’ll stay.  Some are very near and dear.. and in the forefront of my screenplay!!  “It’s a wonderful life” because it’s what I want… It’s what I am writing… with a few bumps here and there…. as nothing is written in stone!!
I will chose my DEATH!!  However I want to leave this EARTH… that’s how it will be.  When I am tired and want to go HOME!!  I will leave because that’s what I agreed on before I came here!!  I’ve now learned, when someone takes their life, they are tired and feel they have done their part on Earth… I will always have mixed feelings about Suicide and hurts my guts.. to my core.. but… they chose to go HOME!!
I am here on EARTH.. On a Mission… Very powerful and very healing!!  I can’t wait to see what’s next.. what messages my Angels will give me to lead me in this path!!

Her last day on Earth

Dee hugged her girlfriend goodbye and watched her leave through the window…like she does every morning.  As she said “Goodbye” Dee held on a bit tighter this time.  Ohh, Patti said, where did that come from?  Dee replied “I just want you to know how much I love you and you mean the world to me”.  Awww… I know you do said Patti, I really do.  She walked off and into her car she went.  Dee stood by the window the whole time waiving as Patti made her way down the pavement.

She waited……. she waited for that one phone call, that one text…. that one person that would make her change her mind……..about leaving this Earth.  It didn’t happen and she was quite surprised how she pulled it off that no one knew.  No hints, no clues.. it was never spoken about.  Only inside her head constantly.  Well, that was it.  She didn’t need anyone to change her mind.  The Financial Burden would finally end.  Such a Peaceful thought.  She made up her mind.

Sadness she felt for the loved ones she left behind.  Just hearing them say, how could she do this, why didn’t she ask for help.  If they can hear me now, I’d say… I was tired of the struggle.  I got myself into this mess, I got myself out.  I love you all very much.  Life was not fun anymore.  Please accept my sincere words of: I didn’t want to hurt anyone.

Diaries of an Awakening Soul..Part 1


He took that sip…

I couldn’t believe my ears.  After all the progress he made…. reunited and got full custody of his 8 year old son, nice job and a nice place to live………..He took that sip of Alcohol.  All these thoughts rushed into my head, but the one that stuck out the most was, I wonder what drove him there.  What was it that made him go back into that darkness.  Let me feel it, experience it.. let me relate to it just for a moment.  I want to know what you feel right before you decide to take that drink.  What is that darkness like???  Why is it that all those positive things in his life couldn’t over power the Demon.  I pray for you today, for Strength, Will, and the Determination to move forward and start again.  I pray you dust yourself off and let yesterday be done, Today I can.

Why was I chosen…

10387215_284457475068493_6855258254673819651_nSo, Every time I see this sentence somewhere, “Do you have a deep purpose that not a lot of people know about. You might not be sure yourself, but you just know you were meant for something bigger” I immediately feel like crying, sadness in my chest…….almost agonizing to my soul.  I’ve felt it for as long as I can remember……………. I AM HERE FOR A BIGGER PURPOSE, always feeling like something is right around the corner, just at the tip of my fingers but out of my reach.  For the life of me, can’t seem to figure out what can I do, or how can I help??  Well, it’s haunting me but I know the answer will come.  As soon as I let it go……. the answer will come.   

……………So she ended her life………………

Sometimes we really don’t know when someone is hurting DEEP down inside. Some will cry out, some WILL NOT. They can walk around with a smile on their beautiful face and seem interested in life…………….When they are really NOT.  WE are planning activities and just things in our daily lives…….. when they’ve been planning TO END THEIRS!!! If you believe you can pick up someone’s spirit today, they go ahead and do it. Don’t be shy to give them a nice compliment or tell them a nice quality about WHO THEY ARE……….So they feel they have a place in this world. Times are tough, YES….. BUT when that someone loses HOPE, AND THE WILL TO LIVE, WHAT ELSE IS THERE???… Listen to what people say…..find out what’s going on in their life.  I truly believe there always has to be at least one clue.  That one thing that sparks your intuition.  I am becoming more and more aware of the words I speak to people.  More aware of how folks carry themselves around and what they say.  Well, today is also a reminder to myself, the words we speak to others can be LIFE CHANGING!!!! Be nice, you can change someone’s life TODAY……………………….


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He lost his life.. after battling cancer…. who knew?

Just when you think life is great, summer is here!! Laughing and splashing around in the cool water, while the sun beats down on your body. Planning trips and gathering with the people you love to be with. The ice cream truck passing by while the kids run after it screaming “Ice Creeeeam” Yes, summer is wonderful…..and then it hits you. Someone looses their life. It hits so hard that our brains cannot possibly comprehend such an event. Once again family and friends struck by an overwhelming tragedy..Their Son, Brother, Cousin, Nephew. But It brings the strongest sadness for me to say it was Her Finance!! Our lives change forever. I will be in silence for a while, while my best friend bonds together with her family who lost this young man. If I had to choose something in this world besides assisting others in their healing….. It would be for us to love and take care of each other. Let the small things pass. Really take the time to be with people, take care of them, get to know one another. We are surely not going to like everyone we meet. (It’s just not going to happen). But you know what, have some compassion. Maybe they are going through something you just can’t understand right now. Whether you know it or not, we’re all in this together. If we believe in that, there would be a big difference in the way we treat each other. Lets have patience and take a recon in what’s important in life. Make a conscious effort……I’ve started…. Who’s gonna follow? Man up, Woman up. Don’t worry, you won’t be weak if you give in to someone. Our egos are cruel and we learn it the hard way. But, I’m the first to admit it. Love and Prayers to the whole family. Love you guys more than you know.


Sometimes I feel like I’m the only one longing for love….aching to be held again, fighting this overwhelming desire to lay naked and his body up against mine.  But of course, there’s no one in sight.  Could it be?  I’m not alone, when I’m really alone.  I cannot imagine others feeling like this.  All these emotions stirring inside of me, I feel agony.  They keep circulating and circulating, round and around it goes.  The circuit needs to be broken.  It hurts to know I don’t have him.   I cannot express myself on anyone or to anyone!



I PASSED my Connecticut Board Exam!!!!!!!

I am a Licensed Massage Therapist in the State of Connecticut.

Yipeeeeee, Yahooooooo

Graduated The Clinical Massage Therapy Program……..


Dassss Meeeee



Beautiful flowers from everyone!!



Our favorite Teacher…Handing us our Diplomas


My Parents gave me flowers


My Best friend…spoke a few words about me. So awesome they gave our guests the opportunity to speak on this special day!!

I was only going to say a few words but, to express myself fully, it needs to be deep and full of detail. I do not do anything half-ass so I’m going to write a little story!!

To my Family (who was right beside me, excited the whole way through, and wouldn’t think less than to support my decisions in life). Dad, I know you said we butted heads and I proved you wrong. I know you were concerned for a couple of reasons but I would never look at it like that. I would just say I found ways to better myself more and more every day. I’m more in touch now with myself and the true aspects of healing than I’ve ever been in my life. It cracks me up when you laugh at me doing my Qi-gong or when you close your eyes and put your fingers together and say OMMMMM…. out loud. Pretending you are meditating like me. Part of me thinks you think it’s weird but, deep down inside you know it’s all part of my process. The process of me “becoming who I really am” , healing and assisting others one by one with their own healing. (I will explain that to you one day because right now I can see you saying, what the (beep) is she talking about?) LMAO!! It’s ok, I understand. To my Friends (childhood ones and new ones, who let me practice on them and were/are nothing short of excited for my new career and journey in life. Who told me I can do it and look how far I’ve come when it got really thick and felt like I lost my focus…your words were so very much needed, I can’t thank you enough), My Connecticut Family (who has welcomed me with open arms, in their homes and taken care of me from the start, you treat me like one of your own. People don’t get to experience this often and I will cherish it ALWAYS). My Classmates (that I adore and will consider my dear friends and support group forever. I am honored to take this road with you. We all had our ups and downs and were there for each other every step. Thank you with all my heart), My Teachers and Faculty (who have gone above and beyond their roles in that establishment. Their advice and support has been priceless and is unforgettable. I got the chance to become close with a few of them and they should only know the impact they have on students sometimes. I admire their dedication, support, willingness and character.) Well, The day has come. Two years of hard work, studying, sweat and even blood for me. I found a way to shed blood in the parking lot when we played with the hacky sack. I dove for it (for some unknown reason and cut my palm open). For those that know me………ARE NOT SURPRISED. (I’m getting better at not injuring myself). 

On a serious note, the education I received will last a lifetime and I will continue the education. Especially in different modalities. None of us knew the depth of the Clinical Program and all the Science classes they require. So folks, you must know it’s not all about muscles and bones. Please always respect the education of a Massage Therapist. Like for instance, lets take movement. How and why do we move? Is it voluntary or involuntary? What happens when an Agonist is moving? It is Concentrically or Eccentrically contracting? What really is occurring when a muscle is Isometrically contracting?? Did you know that the Parasympathetic Nervous kicks in when getting a massage? Do you know what a Synapse is or how many Cranial and Spinal nerves we have? Circulation through the right side of the heart is known as Pulmonary Circulation, Left is Systemic Circulation. Is the thumb a hinge or a pivot joint? NEITHER….It’s a saddle joint. What comes to mind when you hear Homeostasis and negative feedback or that we have 5 false ribs in our ribcage? What happens to the Humerus when the Scapula upwardly rotates? What Plexus is compressed in Thoracic outlet Syndrome? What is a local contraindication or systemic? How about some Chinese Medicine…….Which I LOOOOOVE!!!! What is an energetic pathway which Qi circulates in the superficial fascia of the body? Which Element is associated with Fear, Blue/Black hair of the head, bones, cold, salty, and the “Essence” of who you are? Why is it that the Hea       rt, Small Intestine, Triple Warmer and Pericardium are all associated with the Heart but the rest of the organs only have 2 Meridians?? What are the 2 Meridians (not even mentioned) that are not associated with an organ? Well, My friend my friend Deana got to witness this. She looked at me one day and said……..I don’t know how you do it. She used to quiz me on my flashcards. Trust me, it got difficult a few times but she talked me right back to reality. Take a deep breath and keep moving forward…. and I did.

So Grateful. Now I take the CT. and NY boards and become Licensed. Then the new chapter begins!! Thank you to the people in my life and the new ones crossing my path. This has been very exciting!! What I’ve put into life, is what I’m getting out of it. It’s all about attitude and not expecting anything in return. Do good for people and you will be taken care of in one way or another.


Danielle M. Ingenito

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